It’s nearing the end of February already.
This is me checking in with myself about the goals I have made and have tried to maintain. I haven’t been as strict with myself and severely lacking discipline. Sigh.
February always feels like the hardest month of the year for me. And this year I have a mountain of setbacks with familiar drama creeping its way back into my life and I’ve struggled to balance it with wanting to get my mojo back in the streaming/content space.
Basically, I am exhausted, very very depressed, and feel directionless with myself right now.
But just cause I haven’t made much content doesn’t mean I haven’t been trying to get better. I went back to therapy in January and have been attending weekly. I am on new medications that will (hopefully!) help with my debilitating OCD and anxiety symptoms. I have been continuing my physical therapy, with a set routine every day that has allowed me to exercise more regularly again! Including walking my bebe, Echo.
Also, no big deal (it’s an extremely huge deal to anyone who knows me) I started cooking again. In my renovated kitchen. Food for myself and Sitx AND fresh food for Echo. HOLY COW.
These are all very real, tangible changes in my life that have added up quickly to sustainable habits I hope to keep. However, it isn’t translating to content creation just yet like I had hoped.
That is the next step.
I am trying to not let guilt consume me for all those who have subscribed to me, engaged with me, gotten to know me, supported me, and expected content from me. I swear my content will be better when I am better.
This is a very small update to shout into the void.
My progress is not stagnant because I am continuing to try, even if it is slow. That’s it for now.
See everyone on the rift
xoxo Megs
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